I lost 50 pounds!!!

I had a dream that i lost both my 50 pounds note..when i woke up i checked..1 50 pound note went missing!!! Should i be blessed cuz at least not both went missing like my dream???

50 pounds!!!!!!!!!!!! Where are u??????????????=(

My head is cracking...

DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was a BAD DREAM..

Today's party not bad..

Thanks to mummy, granny and my maid for preparing everything..

After party went yamcha with frenz..NICE~Missing my frenz already=)

Now my house hving BBQ party..hvn go meet up with Yeyan and the gang..they dont knw hw to come to my house..

My house full of kids now..bro and sis's frenz..si beh noisy..

Me alone in the room online..nth to do..nobody to chat with..

Been a while since i sign in to any stuffs of mine..Facebook..MSN..and even blogging..nvr happen huh? I remembered Vh said b4 its weird nt to see me nt going online even for a day..but now i disappeared for so long..

I became intimidated and scared of almost everything now..i used to be timid..bt like now..guess nvr happened..i dont hv my life..dont knw hw to talk to my frenz dont knw wht to do..

im so sick and tired of my life..

You just dont knw how much i love u..

I thought i hv u..

Nope..

I was wrong..

I was alone the whole night long..

Life probs are killing me..

I just want things to be simple..

I dont wanna think, suspect and guess..

Im really tired of this..

Please..

Im simple..dont make me so complicated..

Hope things will be better..

I dont love myself enough..

Once again..i let myself being hurt..

Its been a while since i can sleep well...every day i'll be hving nightmares...

Too much stuffs are bugging me..

Cant breathe..

Just wish tht everything will turn out better...

I failed my exams...for the second attempt..

He's ignoring me at the same time..

And i cant find any tutors in UK to help me solve this prob..all of them are not available..

I cant go back to UK to further my studies..

Im feeling helpless right now...everything seems to go against me..

I feel like dying..seriously..

Why is the reality so harsh to me..

I jz want to graduate..now i cant do anything at all..

It's been a while since i blog anything here..

Sky is gloomy right now..Im sitting alone at home..missing u..

Consti still gt 3 essays to complete..haix..

Wonder wht u were doing now???

Still mad at me huh? Dont wanna talk to me??? I dont knw why probs like this alweyz come btw us..

But i really miss u right now..wish u were here..

Sunway Pyramid

Went for fish spa and manicure with Xyun..

Fish Spa

At first im feeling afraid to see soooo many fish nibbling my feet!!!

Scary!

Me & Xyun

After tht i went for manicure..wanted to do pedicure..bt they say i need to wear slippers..cz my heels will smear the colour..so wht to do..i'll just hv to do it nx time=(

My French Manicure

After tht i met up with D=) Xyun..u're lucky number one to meet him in real=p

D dont eat Jap food..and Xyun feel like hving it..so me and her went to Sushi King..

p/s: Xyun..thx alot for accompanying me today..we din do any shopping also..whole day u accompanying me doing this and tht..sorry and thk u<3^^

~End of today~

At first everyone is coming to my house to cook and have dinner..bt after waiting for some of 'us' for too long..we started to get restless and bored to go buy groceries..so we changed the plan to eat outside..we went to Jusco..

They were planning and discussing wht to eat..lol

Finally..all decided to eat Jap food and Sakae Sushi..

Evon
Yeyan


Vhuay

Blur Hxin

Xyun

Hxin=D

The sick me Zzz

Finished everything=O

After that..they all went to my house..went online checking out others' facebook and gossipping..hahahaxD

I steamed some clams for them..hving some cakes and drinks..we chit-chatted till midnite..

The nite was not bad..It's been a while since we had a chance to eat together like this..Nx time hopefully we can make it to cook ourselves..lol

Recently..many stuffs happened..

Hving bad results..disappointed with myself..yea..once again..

At the same time..learning life lessons..process of learning is painful..the feeling of failing is just unexplainable..

Hate this kind of feelings..

Just hv to stand up..i dont hv a choice..i hv to..

Thx my frenz..i love u all..

Before heading to the airport..Mandi said she wanna spend time with me..so we including William went to La Tasca, one fine spanish restaurant in Reading for dinner=)

We had..

Aubergines

Mushrooms

Chicken Wings

Potatoes

Fried calamari

Spanish sausage

Paella

King Prawns

Spinanch with beans, cherry tomatoes and spanish sausages

Fried prawns

Chicken

Desserts..

Fresh strawberries with vanilla ice-cream

This is my dessert..yum yum..

Choc mousse with strawberries

Mandi=)

Me^^

Now im back to Msia..the weather here is unbearable..im sitting at home dont know what to do..wanna go out..bt its really toooooo HOT!!!!

Still looking forward to how im gonna spend my 3 months here..

Sudd..I dont wanna leave UK..these few days kept thinking about cancelling my flight..

Well..i will love Msia..tht time i wont wanna come back UK..

So i should go back now..

Haix..Im missing UK..lol..though im still here..lol

My 20th Birthday

No longer a TeeNager..Been emotional recently..horrible feelings..Nvr thought of celebrating my birthday..thx to Yew Yung..she made an effort to celebrate for me..She went to pick up her friend Luke..bought lots of stuffs to my place..they hand made tiramisu for me..

Nvr expected Mandi to come home for me..I was in my room when she and her friend came in with a cake and pops..on the cake there were 21 candles..20 for my age..1 for all my wishes to come true..Really surprised! Really touched<3
I got 2 cakes..one my Princess cake from YewYung..one from Mandi..
Joe said that he must giv me something for my birthday..I said u dont hv to..He said he dont hv to bt he should..so he brought loads of beer..which is in fact for HimSelf and not for ME..but he said tht is his treasure..

Jane and Pooja came over to celebrate with me..but cz they are abit nt feeling well..so they left early..

Gt presents and cards from William..Yewyung..and Hxin..



I dont hv mood to go out..everyone came to my place..with wine..gifts and cakes..so i treated everyone Dominos..

Had a very touched birthday..Got wishes from so many friends and my family..Knew i'd been making everyone worried..Thx to some specific friends, those in UK and Msia..you guys called up and try to cheer me up..i knw..Am glad to hv u guys by my side..Thx..

Happy 20th Birthday to myself..

Here & There in London

Ktv in London
After singing..makanlah! Yummy~

Hong Kong Kai Lan with Ginger Sauce

Siew Yok

Claypot chillie brinjal & chicken

Braised Pork with Mui Choy

Hong Kong Style Pearl Bubble Tea

'Sungei Wang' in China Town

Dim Sum in Chinatown

Siu Mai

Fried Ho Fun with Chicken

Fried Carrot Cake

Clubbing in Fabrics, London

Tend to get lost in the club at first cuz its kinda big~lolzzFound my Street..PRINCESS Street^^

Handmade Dumplings in ChinaTown

Some sampat pics in the Underground

Throughout my stay in Nellie's house..this Ah Miao..kept 'attacking' me..i think it knew im scared of it! Whenever i come..it will surely appear from nowhere!!!!!Arrrgggggghhhhh!!!!

Ah Miao