I'm BACK~

Its been a long time since i blogged..im back~~

What u said kept spinning in my head..it hurts so much..too much..

I dont knw y things just cant be better..im tired..im hurt and im tired..

I really hope everything will be better..wanna let go whtever shit tht happened b4..but..

Its just like whtever i do just not right..whtever i say or i do u jz hate..

Im not crapping im nt faking anything..im jz saying wht im feeling..

Hxin..suddenly i miss u so much..im sad..u faster come back..

I MISS my CUTE CAR~~~

Just came back from Genting with Youngzy Gang + Ysian..lol

Was fun! Its been a while since we went out together like tht..

Missing everyone=) Love all of u<3

1.39am..

Sitting here alone..

Really too much shit in my head..

Breathe in...breathe out..

I'll be ok..

I lost 50 pounds!!!

I had a dream that i lost both my 50 pounds note..when i woke up i checked..1 50 pound note went missing!!! Should i be blessed cuz at least not both went missing like my dream???

50 pounds!!!!!!!!!!!! Where are u??????????????=(

My head is cracking...

DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was a BAD DREAM..

Today's party not bad..

Thanks to mummy, granny and my maid for preparing everything..

After party went yamcha with frenz..NICE~Missing my frenz already=)

Now my house hving BBQ party..hvn go meet up with Yeyan and the gang..they dont knw hw to come to my house..

My house full of kids now..bro and sis's frenz..si beh noisy..

Me alone in the room online..nth to do..nobody to chat with..

Been a while since i sign in to any stuffs of mine..Facebook..MSN..and even blogging..nvr happen huh? I remembered Vh said b4 its weird nt to see me nt going online even for a day..but now i disappeared for so long..

I became intimidated and scared of almost everything now..i used to be timid..bt like now..guess nvr happened..i dont hv my life..dont knw hw to talk to my frenz dont knw wht to do..

im so sick and tired of my life..

You just dont knw how much i love u..

I thought i hv u..

Nope..

I was wrong..

I was alone the whole night long..

Life probs are killing me..

I just want things to be simple..

I dont wanna think, suspect and guess..

Im really tired of this..

Please..

Im simple..dont make me so complicated..

Hope things will be better..

I dont love myself enough..

Once again..i let myself being hurt..

Its been a while since i can sleep well...every day i'll be hving nightmares...

Too much stuffs are bugging me..

Cant breathe..

Just wish tht everything will turn out better...

I failed my exams...for the second attempt..

He's ignoring me at the same time..

And i cant find any tutors in UK to help me solve this prob..all of them are not available..

I cant go back to UK to further my studies..

Im feeling helpless right now...everything seems to go against me..

I feel like dying..seriously..

Why is the reality so harsh to me..

I jz want to graduate..now i cant do anything at all..

It's been a while since i blog anything here..

Sky is gloomy right now..Im sitting alone at home..missing u..

Consti still gt 3 essays to complete..haix..

Wonder wht u were doing now???

Still mad at me huh? Dont wanna talk to me??? I dont knw why probs like this alweyz come btw us..

But i really miss u right now..wish u were here..

Sunway Pyramid

Went for fish spa and manicure with Xyun..

Fish Spa

At first im feeling afraid to see soooo many fish nibbling my feet!!!

Scary!

Me & Xyun

After tht i went for manicure..wanted to do pedicure..bt they say i need to wear slippers..cz my heels will smear the colour..so wht to do..i'll just hv to do it nx time=(

My French Manicure

After tht i met up with D=) Xyun..u're lucky number one to meet him in real=p

D dont eat Jap food..and Xyun feel like hving it..so me and her went to Sushi King..

p/s: Xyun..thx alot for accompanying me today..we din do any shopping also..whole day u accompanying me doing this and tht..sorry and thk u<3^^

~End of today~

At first everyone is coming to my house to cook and have dinner..bt after waiting for some of 'us' for too long..we started to get restless and bored to go buy groceries..so we changed the plan to eat outside..we went to Jusco..

They were planning and discussing wht to eat..lol

Finally..all decided to eat Jap food and Sakae Sushi..

Evon
Yeyan


Vhuay

Blur Hxin

Xyun

Hxin=D

The sick me Zzz

Finished everything=O

After that..they all went to my house..went online checking out others' facebook and gossipping..hahahaxD

I steamed some clams for them..hving some cakes and drinks..we chit-chatted till midnite..

The nite was not bad..It's been a while since we had a chance to eat together like this..Nx time hopefully we can make it to cook ourselves..lol

Recently..many stuffs happened..

Hving bad results..disappointed with myself..yea..once again..

At the same time..learning life lessons..process of learning is painful..the feeling of failing is just unexplainable..

Hate this kind of feelings..

Just hv to stand up..i dont hv a choice..i hv to..

Thx my frenz..i love u all..